I don’t like making mistakes. I prefer doing the right things and doing them well.

Yesterday I accidentally got my schedule mixed up and was late for an appointment and missed it all together. It was not the end of the world. However, the fact being that I don’t like making mistakes, this was not easy. On top of it, it did cost me some money in loss of business. I don’t like loosing money either. This sent me for a tailspin in my mind, kicking myself and labeling myself as a failure and so on.

Considering all I’ve been learning in the personal development field I knew I had to change how I was feeling and how I was reacting about this situation or it was going to keep going downhill from there, attracting more loss into my life.

So I simply decided that I was going to turn away from the experience without giving it any feeling or strong emotions. Easier said than done!

Later I went on to my reading of Think and Grow Rich and was thoroughly enjoying it. A good feeling! As I was reading I remembered something I had read earlier about failure. It could be stretching the principle a bit to find this perspective but I realized where I’d been failing and not only that, but failing to get up and keep trying.

Hill said,

When faced with defeat the easiest and most logical thing to do is to quit. That is exactly what the majority of people do. Those who have cultivated the habit of persistence seem to enjoy insurance against failure.

It’s been easier for me to identify this concept with failure in things like reaching a goal, or a completing a project on time. If I miss it, I try again. It’s clear to see how getting up and being persistent will pay off. This is something I’ve connected to and am working on. But, being late? It’s not like I’m gonna give up and be late from now on.

Somehow this failure was of a more deceptive nature as there was no question of giving up. Yet as I looked and this failure and what bothered me, I realized what was at stake. I was the change I am making in my thoughts and my commitment to hold positive thoughts in dominance as much as possible.  This has all been with the purpose of being on the right frequency or vibration in order to attract and manifest the life that desire. This was the thing I was failing to accomplish!

With this realization I suddenly made the sift by letting go of the shame and self-reproach I was allowing to bother me. I was faced with a fear that I had attracted this to me, I was loosing money. I had feelings of shame. I began to wonder how was I ever going to get over this and learn how to “think and grow rich”. “I’m doing something wrong!” was my predominant thought.

Realizing I was experiencing a temporary defeat in my ability to control my thoughts, I was able to correct them and get back on track again. It was great! I was simply not going to give up in failure and let it drain my energy.

I was able to learn from this experience! I learned more than I would have, had I groveled in my feelings of shame and loss or simply left it as a one time failure, and not applied myself and find the “seed of an equivalent advantage”, as Hill put it.  It’s all a matter of perspective and learning to make the right choice.

I know I have the choice of what thoughts I will entertain, and how they will affect my life. I also know that if I fail, all I have to do is get up and keep trying!